I'm feeling a bit better today

Hi Again

Christmas has been rooted for me this year, I haven't seen my family and I have been too ill to really enjoy the company of my friends. I did take up C's invitation to Christmas dinner and I must say, it was a really nice day. The food and company was fab but I laid off the drinking because I wanted to get home for the evening cos I wasn't feeling up to staying over (although the invitation was there). I saw my friends P and C on boxing day and went for a walk along the beach in seasalter, again, I didn't stay long because my illness makes me feel bad after any kind of effort. I think that I have a sinus and chest infection.

Back at work on Thursday, I feel like I'm wading through treacle all the time. I see the doctor again on Friday who at last prescribed some antibiotics for a sinus infection. I told her last week that was the problem, why won't the bloody doctor listen to me, I know myself far better than she does.

Anyway, we had a dress rehearsal for the New Years Eve bash on Friday night. I have been invited to play in the band for New Years Eve, we are cobbled together from all manner of local musos, all of which are much better musicians than I. To be honest I don't really consider myself to be a musician, I can't read music and I don't even know the notes on my bass guitar. Still I can keep time and I enjoy plauying and was quite flattered when I was invited to join the NYE band. It has caused me considerable anxiety, 20 odd songs to learn in about 4 weeks, two rehearsals and the rest done in isolation, I'm not really good enough to be able to work like that. Still, the dress rehearsal went suprisingly well and I think I might get away with it on the night.

What I really want to do is to hang loose and let my hair down, I missed another good party last night, I wasn't feeling to well and to be brutally honest my desision not to go was more rooted in not wanting to spend the evening without being able to drink, smoke or take some class A's (preferably all three at once). I didn't even stand much chance at getting laid so I decided not to go. I think that I am in danger of turning into a really sad bastard..........

I know what will happen, as soon as I'm back in party mode, party time will be over and I shall be crawling the walls for somewhere to go.

Ho hum, cest la vie...............

Hopefully, I'll be back on form on NYE and I might be up for it (well, after the band have finished playing).

I have been having a good look at some other blogs (see my links) wow, there are so many really talented, articulated and clever people out there, as usual, it has a tendancy to make me feel inadequate but I am enjoying seeing what is out there.....

Still, some good news this week, and a bit of a boost to my ever flailing ego, I have been acknowledged in a book for my contributions to both the book and the project. The book is called, "Earthships - building a zero carbon future for homes" by Mischa Hewitt and Kevin Telfer. I have put a great deal of effort into the project over the last few years (as have many others) and am happy with an acknowledgment and hope the book sells well for the project as a whole.

If you are interested in sustainable buildings and self build eco homes then check out www.lowcarbon.co.uk and have a squiz at the Earthship Brighton project.

For the moment, I am concentrating on getting better, rehearsing my bass lines for monday night and continuing to be inspired to keep writing this blog, maybe someone might read it.